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yea..this blog site sux! *waves fist at screen*i don't know how many "technical problems" they have...so ne ways, i'll end my bloggin on this site. not to say i'm done bloggin..just tryin to find a "decent" site. ne ways, if ne one has any suggestions, msg me. otherwise, i'll let u know personally when i start it up again. ne ways, thank to all those who commented.

au revoir!!

I don't know how many times I've watched this movie in the last two weeks, but it was very moving every single time. It brought most of us(who watched it) close to tears. To put it simply, it was amazing!

The movie is based on the true story during the 1994 Rwandan genocide. It's about a Hutu hotel manager who uses his hotel as a place to hide his family(his wife was Tutsi) and Tutsi refugees from the Hutu militia. He saved over a 1000 people. They all managed to escape to different countries after the UN got exit visas for all of them. Don Cheadle gave an exceptional performance and should have won the Oscar for best actor(IMO). It was an emotional film, and it's hard to believe that such an atrocity could have happened in this day and age.

However, if we look today, these sort of massacres are probably being carried out somwhere around this world. We just can't see it. No one wanted to see it back then, no one wanted to help...so it's probably the same now. My best friend's mom told me(after she saw the movie), that it related so much to what was going on in Sri Lanka..between the LTTE rebels and the civilians. Ofcourse it isn't genocide, but it's just as bad. But does the rest of the world know or care about it? no.

Anyways, I don't like to rant on and on about this issue. But I definitely recommend this movie to anyone. It'll give us a history lesson and also possibly teach us on humanity.

yea..hvn't been on this for a long time. for some reason, my password wouldn't work one day. so had to change it. ne ways, now i'm back. but ppl hv been askin me to switch to msn spaces now. i mite as well i suppose..seeing how EVERYONE is on it! :) altho i think i won't blog too often..now that school's about to start. we'll see how it goes.

so i hv one more week of work left. THANK GOD! :) actually, i'm goin to miss work. it's been fun..even tho' i've had some bad days w/ customers. i sure am gonna miss everyone. all the drama, jokes..good times! :) ne ways, now i'm hunting for a part-time job in st.kitts. just to pay my bills thru out school. *sigh* yea school..not lookin forward to it. i tried signin up for 3 courses for my minor..so that i could finish off most of it..but nope..they just wouldn't let me! DAMN U REGISTRAR!!!so i ended up takin the second part of marketing and organizational behaviour..hopefully all my subjects r good. as well, i gotta start preping for my thesis proposal. i'm still lost. hopefully things will work out thru out the year.

there have been other developments in my life..it's driving me a bit crazy now. i don't know wut's goin to happen in the near future. I just pray that everything works out.

and to malli: if u ever read this..now that u hv a job. i know it's hard, but i hope that now u can see the pain that mama n dada had to go thru to get us here. be thankful that this job is only temporary. hopefully this will make u work harder at school. if u ever need to talk to us..we r always here for u. no matter wut, i love ya.

it will always be the case. I don't think we'd ever be able to get rid of the double standard..especially against women. i'm writing this blog after some "joke" that my dad made about my weight.

last night we were at one of their friends' place havin dinner. and all of a sudden my dad was like don't eat too much..u'll get fat and ugly and no guy will ever want to marry you. imagine how i felt when he said that! I was fuming!!! he said it was only a joke..but i thought that to be an insult..especially saying it infront of other ppl.

what i don't get is..why is it that we, women have to look good to a man..but a man does not have to bother. It's OK for a man to want a pretty, thinner woman. and it's present everywhere..especially in the media..you see prettier, thinner women in movies, music, commercials,etc. and if the rest of the women in society don't measure up to that picture, we aren't worth it. we are just plain ugly. today, women are doing everything possible to look young, beautiful and thin. All these reality shows on botox, facelifts,etc..it makes me sick!! but unfortunately, that's the reality of society. humans are very materialistic...we yearn for the "perfect" life...wutever that maybe..it's sad really.

so earlier on I wrote on how many of my cousins n friends were getting engaged or married. well last weekend I attended my cousin's wedding here in Canada. It would be the first family wedding that i've attended since i was 6. the last one being my uncle's wedding in sri lanka, and i was the flower girl :p

ne ways, the wedding was beautiful. everyone looked amazing..even the visitors! :) everyone was havin fun...but i'm assumin it was a trying time for the bridal party..wut w/ all the ceremony n the picture taking. the photographers took tons! the food was good(indian food) and the dj wasn't too bad. played a variety of songs..so kept everyone happy.

now, since i've never been to a wedding in a long time, i did not know wut would go on during the celebrations..but that nite i did..i found out about the various rituals that the couple go thru(the whole beetle throwing to ward off evil eyes n recitations,etc). however i also noticed something i didn't like..the older women tryin to figure out which girl was next in line! :p we all figured that one out..:p but then the ladies started counting how many girls were there n started estimating how many yrs it would take n how many weddings there would be..i laughed at that..but when my aunt started talkin abt me n my sis..*gah*..it started freakin me out.

this yr will be a yr of weddings. most of my cousins have started thinking of walkin down the aisle..takin that big step. so naturally, everyone assumes that i will be next. that always frightens me n angers me. just coz all my cousins r gettin married doesn't mean i hv to line up as well! just today, when my sis mentioned that another cousin of ours was getting engaged this weekend(congrats Hazari!), the first thing our mom said was..it's time for u as well! i'm not saying i don't want to get married..it's just that i don't think it's MY time yet. there's a time and place for everything..and i don't believe it's the right time..PLUS..i don't even hv a guy!! :D hehe..InshAllah, everything will fall into place with TIME.

and to my cousins who are married or will get married soon...congratulations and all the best!

this subject was brought up in one of my seminars and a few ppl got into a debate about this. we had this hypothetical situation where there was a job...2 ppl applied for it. one was a minority with no education or previous work and the other was a caucasian with education n a good work history. if the organization was being pushed to have a more multicultural workforce..would it be ethical to hire the minority just coz of the fact that they want a more diverse workplace?because i'm a minority in Canada, i can understand how we(the minority) need jobs to start off especially if we have just migrated here. we need the skills to get us going. but at the same time, as someone who's educated, i feel that it would not be fair to the caucasian because he has the necessarily credentials. he could help out the organization and would not need much guidance with the job that he's been given. it's a tough choice and i don't know what i would do if i were in that position.

there are other ethical dilemmas that occur on a daily basis. especially the terry shiavo case..where the husband wanted to take her off life support because he (as well as some doctors) said that she was brain dead and it would be best to take her off life support. however, Terry's family didn't think so. I can't imagine having to decide whether a person should get to live or die. Should we even be allowed to decide someone else's fate? It freaks me out to think that humans can decide who ought to live or die. (ie. captial punishment as well). I am a firm believer that it is only upto God Almighty to decide our fates.

i could keep writing on and on about different ethical problems that have been going on..but then i'd just be boring u :) ne ways, these r just my thoughts for the moment.

well it's wedding season! :) i just found out that one of my cuzins in SL is gettin married in 2 weeks..as is another here in Canada. so just thought of dedicatin a lil blog to all of my cuzins who r getting engaged or married this yr. CONGRATS to all of u who r engaged/married!!!

it's probably gonna b one of THE most stressful times in ur life. but take it in stride. don't let it get to ya..coz the best is yet to come. :D ne hoo, hope all goes well for each n everyone of y'all. hv fun n save me some cake damnit!

hehe..all that know me gotta hv known that this was coming..:) i know i've told most of u abt him, but im gonna keep spreadin the word..heehee

so Russell Peters is an Indian/Canadian comedian. I first saw this funny guy on TV doin standup comedy. OMG he was awesome! n now i'm hooked!! :D altho i hvn't seen ne new material yet, i still watch his old material..which is hilarious every time.

so go watch him!! there are clips available online!!

ta ta

i was watching this segment on dateline nbc where they toured some of garment factories in Bangladesh. n it just got to me.

at work, many of us complain how we don't get paid enuf for doing the type of work that we do...but after watching this segment..i think we get paid more than enuf..especially since we coulda done worse, like the workers at the garment factories do in third world countries.

the segment explored the garment factories to see whether they were following proper policies n procedures for the workers..to ensure that they were getting their required breaks n pay n that there were no child workers. What they found was that altho there were no child labourers, there was no such improvement on the rest. ppl were forced to work overtime w/out pay, they had to get permission from their supervisors to go to the bathroom, n sometimes if they made mistakes, they had to work overtime w/out pay. but wut's really awful abt the whole thing is that they got paid less than a dollar an hour!!! that's just wrong.

the reporter who was doin the story was going under the guise of a supposed brand name trying to get a garment company to make his clothes..n wut the supervisors of each of the companys told him were a big bunch of lies. they would show that the workers were treated fairly, and paid good money..but to see, that was not the case.

one of the bangladeshi women who worked in the factories was taken to the States so that she could see where the clothes that she made went. most of the garment factories cater to walmart, kohls, n other brand name apparel. The reporter took her to the Walmart n found out that the pants sold for almost 10 times of wut she was being paid..she just started crying. she felt used. n guess wut..those pants only cost us 20bux. n yet here we are, in the western world complaining abt how pricey some of the things we purchase are. however, we(western nations) hv the most choice n the most freedom in the entire world.

it's a double-edged sword i think. ppl here r trying to make ends meet wat w/ all the bills n all..and it's the same situation there..but they r trying to live..if we stop buying these products..these ppl will hv no money wut so ever..so i'm just lost and confused. i only wish there was an easy answer to this..

i'm still alive..altho just barely! :) i'm working 5 days a week n the other 2 days i'm at school, so i'm being kept quite busy and tired. I got no time to rest! :(so i got no life!!! :p

this week at work has been a tough one for me...muffin u know all about it! :) sorry abt my grumbling..:p i find this very confusing. Where i work, is at the adult rides section in the amusement park..so we have a height restriction. however, many parents drag their kids along n try to get their kids in..eventho' their kids r way too short for the ride. When i say no, they get all crazy on me, n start shouting or plead w/ me to let the kid on coz they r crying too much. i'm sorry but i gotta do my job..muffin, u said something about a mother's love. i find that a bit confusing. if, as a parent u love ur child, why do u insist that the child get on a ride that's not meant for them? you are putting ur child in harm's way..does that count as love..or just trying to get ur kid to stop naggin u? i mean i can understand if ur just trying to please ur child..but sometimes there's a limit rite? i don't think i'd ever let my child on to a ride that they can't go on..i guess i'd be one over-protective mom,eh? :) ne ways, this job has really made me see what parents hv to go thru..and also how ignorant they can be too.

i'm kinda surprised at myself tho'..i never thought i could stand up to strangers, let alone angry adults..but i did..n in a way i'm happy about that. :) i've always seen myself only as this tiny timid girl who had no guts. lol..hehe..now i feel like a tiny stronger(not to mention bitchier) girl! :D ha!!

this blog probably makes no sense wutsoever..not even the title does! :p ne ways, i'll try n update often..:)

so saturday was my 21st b-day. n i ended up working the entire day..yup from 10:30am till 8:30pm. how abt that for a b-day..lol my b-day gift was my first paycheck. yaay. lol. wat's even funnier is the fact that my bus rides to work were more than my pay!! :D o well..i still enjoy working at marineland. co-workers r awesome!!

i know most ppl enjoy turning 21 n celebrate like crazy..but i gotta say, this was one b-day i wasn't entirely lookin forward to..i even forgot! n eways, i guess this b-day wasn't as bad as last yr..i was back in sl..for my gram's funeral. now that wasn't a good b-day or a good vacation.

funny how time passes us by so fast. one minute ur celebrating ur 6th b-day, the next ur 21st!! one minute ur starting grade school, the next ur graduating from university!! my dad's gonna turn the big 6-0 in december..he's definitely not happy abt that. when ur young, ur all happy n proud abt becoming a yr older..but now, i wanna turn back time n go back to being a kid again. i know it sounds crazy..since i'm not even half way near being OLD yet!! :D but when i'm at work, i see adults n kids..n i see how kids r enjoyin themselves, hvn the time of their life..while the adults r all tired n cranky coz they gotta deal w/ hyperactive kids. :)

ne ways, movin on..it's my bro's highschool grad tonite. i know ur reading my blogs malli..so congratulations..but don't party too hard just yet..u gotta get thru ur finals first! THEN u can party all u want..coz once college starts..everything is ur own responsiblity..mama n dada will not b able to help u out. not like now..just some sisterly advice..i know u don't like hearing it..so i wrote it! ;)

so in other news.a friend of mine just gave birth to a baby boy..so CONGRATULATIONS!!! :) so happy for her! :D yaaay!!! hehe.

So last weekend, I was watching this documentry by CTV called "Team for Peace". It was how a winter olympian(Johan Olav Koss) who created a youth team of soccer players consisting of 2 parties: the Israelis and the Palestinian. The point of this match up was to see if these 2 groups could work together as a team regardless of what's going on. They interviewed the kids in the beginning on their thoughts about the war and the other side. They had quite alot to say..and they weren't too happy to see the other side when it came time to start the team. However, with time, the Israelis n the Palestinians in the team became good friends and made it all the way to the semi finals of the Int'l youth soccer tournament in Oslo.

This showed that when you work together towards a common goal, ur differences don't matter. Although this only highlighted the Palestine n Israel conflict, it's set a good example for many feuding countries/regions. If we can all work together, we wouldn't be having so many problems. It's a shame how grown up adults can't seem to see that. In the documentary, the parents were very apprehensive of the team, n they didn't want ne thing to do with the other group. However, when they saw how happy the kids were and how well all of them worked together, the parents let down their guard a bit. I remember one of the mothers of a player said that adults could learn a lesson or two from the children. I think children are less prejudiced n more welcoming n open to new people n ideas..it's the parents' influence that turn them around. We all learn things from our parents' experiences..so if they ever had a bad experience with some type of person, we as children, probably be "conditioned" to hate/dislike that type. So I think it's a parent's job to be indifferent n try n teach their children to do the right thing..to show that everyone may look n act different but we are all humans n each n everyone of us deserves to be treated equally.

ok, i've written about this before but i'm gonna write about this again coz i'm just so sick n tired of playin this game and i need someway of expressing my anger..hence the name of my blog site. :p once in awhile, i'll start lashin out at ppl just coz i'm mad..but for good reason. so i hope i don't offend some of u. if i do, forgive me.

a couple of days back a relative of mine from sri lanka somehow communicated the fact that they wanted money from us..for something stupid that they did!they didn't need to do it..yet they did it..and now they are expecting us to pay for it?? are they outta their friggin mind??!!!!

this has happened to us numerous times..and what's really hurtful is the fact that they all happen to be relatives, not strangers. it's obvious that they think my family is loaded..just coz i live abroad. FYI: That's not the case!!!!!!! we hv our own bills to pay just like ne one else..heck, we probably hv more bills than ne one else. we've told the ppl who keep askin us money all about our bills n stuff that we gotta take care of here, n yet they still keep coming after us. are they that deaf??? or just plain ignorant?i wish i could help em..my entire fam wants to help each n everyone, but guess wut..we can only help so much. we've helped these ppl numerous times, but i think that was one of our biggest mistakes..coz they kept comin back for more and makin us feel guilty abt being better off.. i just wish that they'd lay off my parents..it's hurting them and us a great deal..n the more hurt they get, the more angry i get. n i sure as hell do NOT want to harbour ne nasty feelings toward ne of my relatives..but if they keep doin this..i don't know wut i'll do.

i think in this day n age, it's every person for themselves. ppl trust each other less, help each other less..they take advantage of each other, just to better themselves. what's this world come to? or am i wrong in thinking all of this?? coz nowadays i just dont know wut to believe, or wut to think. maybe i'm just some bitter lil girl who can never be the optimist,eh. :) lol. yea that's probably it. here i am rantin about how some ppl hv upset me when i should be concentratin on the good things that hv happened lately..like startin work and finally drivin on the highway(even tho i'm not supposed to!). the bad is always in mind the most i suppose..it takes over my entire mind. i guess that's the way i am..i wish i could change it.but i can't.

can't seem to get enuf of these quizzes..plus im bored. lol. :p

Your wise quote is: "The best antiques are old friends" by Unknown...
Your buds is the source of your happiness (maybe not all but still). Even if it's just one, a couple or a whole group they are the ones you can't wait to see. It does not matter if you're shy with everyone else or not, with them you let your true spirit shine and can be as loud as you want. They accept you, and you love them for that.

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So the other day my sis and I headed off to Toronto for a highschool gals reunion, which we try to have atleast once a year. It's just our way of keeping in touch n catchin up on each others' lives. :) Anyways, we finally got to see our very much pregnant friend. She's only 21 and she's almost due! I just can't believe that one of my friends is almost a mommy!! Which sorta scares me. As we were all catching up, we started talking about how far we've all come. Most of the girls there I've known since grade 7..and now we r on our 3rd yr of uni. So we've come a long way. And now it seems that one by one, all of us girls r getting ready for marriage and one motherhood. All of us are friggin scared!!! seriously though, i still feel like such a child..i don't really  know if i'm ready for the next step in my life..even tho' i'm "supposed" to be..:p

It's amazing how time flies by,eh. One minute u r still in kindergarten with no thoughts or worries about the future, and the next minute ur in uni, wondering what ur future is going to be like. It's scary thinking about the future. I have so many visions of how I might end up or where I will end up. Yes, I worry about my future WAY too much..(possibly the only reason besides genes for my gray hair,eh?) I dunno. There's so many things I want to do and accomplish before I get married, have children or even die! But for some reason, i feel like i don't hv enuf time! and i'm not even 21 yet!! maybe i'm just a tad bit koo-koo..lol. yes that's it..i'm crazy. lol. ah..

i'm gonna stop here coz i don't know why i even started this blog. EGAD!(haha muffin!)

In your eyes, people see shards of ice everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing away people that love you and truely care for you! You want to be able to reach out and love them but... You can't for some reason... You're just too.... You :P Underneath that cold exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would probably be anywhere up high where you can look down on life below you, like the roof of an apartment building... Your eyes resemble a saddened, crestfallen person seeking out attention, but doesn't know how to handle it. However, you do find comfort from your friends, they're always there for you, and they know the REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather cold, you can be very protective over something you truely believe in or love. Let go of that "tough" rep and just be you! It's impossible to live life without some fun and love

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some parts of this r actually true..heck maybe the whole thing! lol. :D

:p so i'm just waiting to go to my st.kitts(St.Catharines) house to get my mail. so while i wait, i'll let everyone catch up on what's goin on w/ me..

so i just finished my 2nd yr at Brock U (Go Badgers!!). My major is tourism studies-administration w/ a minor in International studies. mouthful ain't it? Anyways, now that i got a 4 month vacation, I've decided i'm goin to take spring courses to get ahead(can't get enuf of school!). Meanwhile, I'll also b workin at MarineLand,which is an amusement park. I'll be startin work frm the 17th of May till October. fun fun fun. So for once, i'll b quite the bz bee. :p

I've decided for my thesis year, that I will do my research paper on Sri Lanka tourism. :) It'll give me a chance to get to 'know' sri lanka alot better i suppose, seeing i hv very limited background info on LK! Shame on me. :( I'm lookin forward to it, even tho' i know there's a lot of work n crap that i'll hv to get thru to do all my research. Anyways, it should b good. or i'm dead! :(

got 2 of my final marks for my 2nd yr..n good ones at that! got 82% for International studies and tourism research stats. sadly, that'll b the only good marks for this yr i think..

k..i'm off!

Do u believe that some dreams tell u the future?

well i sure think so. I don't necessarily think all my dreams tell my future, but i think the ones that u remember clearly, even after days, months, years..are in fact true.

lol. some of u maybe laughin at this..but i honestly believe some of my dreams. I think so far there hv been numerous dreams that hv eventually become true. unfortunately, they weren't happy ones. not a single one.

I know, maybe i'm reading too much into all of this, but somehow i feel like it's the way God's communicating with us. you know, trying to give us a caution as to the trouble that will be coming our way or even trying to make us see alot clearer about the problems that we r tryin to hide from.

unfortunately for me, i never took heed of these dreams. Only recently did i pay attention. I think it was when the recent event happened that i started believing in my dreams(nightmares, more like it). However, it's not to say i believe in ALL my dreams..only a few. the ones that are embedded in my mind for good.

ne hoo, that's my nonesense for the day. :) i'll b sure to keep updating my blog often..latez

In my International studies seminar, I had to do a reflective post n I decided on writing about living in 2 different worlds. Marginal man is someone who is stuck inbetween two different cultures; not really belonging to either one. That's exactly what i am. As everyone close to me knows, I've been pretty much travelling ever since i was a kid. I'm from Sri lanka, but I can't say i grew up there, coz i didn't. I left SL when i was 6 and lived in Riyadh till i was 12. Now, i'm almost 21, and hv spent the last 9 yrs in Canada. Ppl always ask me where I'm from or where I was brought up..I always tell them, I don't know! i'd like to know myself! :p why? coz i don't think i've really belong to one particular place, since i've been moving alot. It's funny coz when I'm in Canada, i call sri lanka my "home", but when I'm there i call Canada my "home". However, it's not just the fact that i've been travelling that's made me confused as to where i belong. It's also the ppl i've encountered everywhere. When i go back to SL, ppl think i'm too darn 'white' and treat me like a stranger. Here, in Canada, i'm 'brown' so naturally i don't belong, to some extent.

I honestly don't think I'll ever "fit" into a certain culture. I'll always be at a distance. I think it's also the same way i treat ppl. I don't really stick to just 'one' group of ppl, I mingle alot..as in w/ different types of ppl, from different cultures. most ppl, would just stick to their own ingroup(whether it be their race,religion,etc), but for me, i don't hv a specific ingroup..i just get along w/ everybody..however that doesn't mean i'm awfully close to them either. somehow, i always seem to keep a distance of some sort between ppl. or do i? :p

i guess u could say i'm a 'nomad' of sorts. not sticking to one place, always on the go! :D I wonder, do ppl who travel out of their countries feel the same way? i'd like to know! :D

So, after a yr's hiatus, I'm finally bloggin again! I wasn't goin to start again till my last yr in uni, but thnx to CHRIS, i've reopened it once again. :p

Anyways, some of my 'regular' visitors mite hv noticed that i've deleted some of my previous posts. reason being that it was a previous chapter of my life that I never want to think about again, therefore I got rid of them. Although, i probably should hv just started a new site altogether, but o well. *shrugs*

so where hv i been? where else but stuck with my books. so much has happened over the year, it's just crazy. I'm not goin to write about it all, coz it'll only cause more confusion to me and everyone else! :D :p

well, this is just the beginning, so i'm not goin to write much. but for all who visit my blog, feel free to comment. :) ne ways, i'll continue this later on..so till then....