So last weekend, I was watching this documentry by CTV called "Team for Peace". It was how a winter olympian(Johan Olav Koss) who created a youth team of soccer players consisting of 2 parties: the Israelis and the Palestinian. The point of this match up was to see if these 2 groups could work together as a team regardless of what's going on. They interviewed the kids in the beginning on their thoughts about the war and the other side. They had quite alot to say..and they weren't too happy to see the other side when it came time to start the team. However, with time, the Israelis n the Palestinians in the team became good friends and made it all the way to the semi finals of the Int'l youth soccer tournament in Oslo.

This showed that when you work together towards a common goal, ur differences don't matter. Although this only highlighted the Palestine n Israel conflict, it's set a good example for many feuding countries/regions. If we can all work together, we wouldn't be having so many problems. It's a shame how grown up adults can't seem to see that. In the documentary, the parents were very apprehensive of the team, n they didn't want ne thing to do with the other group. However, when they saw how happy the kids were and how well all of them worked together, the parents let down their guard a bit. I remember one of the mothers of a player said that adults could learn a lesson or two from the children. I think children are less prejudiced n more welcoming n open to new people n ideas..it's the parents' influence that turn them around. We all learn things from our parents' experiences..so if they ever had a bad experience with some type of person, we as children, probably be "conditioned" to hate/dislike that type. So I think it's a parent's job to be indifferent n try n teach their children to do the right thing..to show that everyone may look n act different but we are all humans n each n everyone of us deserves to be treated equally.

ok, i've written about this before but i'm gonna write about this again coz i'm just so sick n tired of playin this game and i need someway of expressing my anger..hence the name of my blog site. :p once in awhile, i'll start lashin out at ppl just coz i'm mad..but for good reason. so i hope i don't offend some of u. if i do, forgive me.

a couple of days back a relative of mine from sri lanka somehow communicated the fact that they wanted money from us..for something stupid that they did!they didn't need to do it..yet they did it..and now they are expecting us to pay for it?? are they outta their friggin mind??!!!!

this has happened to us numerous times..and what's really hurtful is the fact that they all happen to be relatives, not strangers. it's obvious that they think my family is loaded..just coz i live abroad. FYI: That's not the case!!!!!!! we hv our own bills to pay just like ne one else..heck, we probably hv more bills than ne one else. we've told the ppl who keep askin us money all about our bills n stuff that we gotta take care of here, n yet they still keep coming after us. are they that deaf??? or just plain ignorant?i wish i could help em..my entire fam wants to help each n everyone, but guess wut..we can only help so much. we've helped these ppl numerous times, but i think that was one of our biggest mistakes..coz they kept comin back for more and makin us feel guilty abt being better off.. i just wish that they'd lay off my parents..it's hurting them and us a great deal..n the more hurt they get, the more angry i get. n i sure as hell do NOT want to harbour ne nasty feelings toward ne of my relatives..but if they keep doin this..i don't know wut i'll do.

i think in this day n age, it's every person for themselves. ppl trust each other less, help each other less..they take advantage of each other, just to better themselves. what's this world come to? or am i wrong in thinking all of this?? coz nowadays i just dont know wut to believe, or wut to think. maybe i'm just some bitter lil girl who can never be the optimist,eh. :) lol. yea that's probably it. here i am rantin about how some ppl hv upset me when i should be concentratin on the good things that hv happened lately..like startin work and finally drivin on the highway(even tho i'm not supposed to!). the bad is always in mind the most i suppose..it takes over my entire mind. i guess that's the way i am..i wish i could change it.but i can't.

can't seem to get enuf of these quizzes..plus im bored. lol. :p

Your wise quote is: "The best antiques are old friends" by Unknown...
Your buds is the source of your happiness (maybe not all but still). Even if it's just one, a couple or a whole group they are the ones you can't wait to see. It does not matter if you're shy with everyone else or not, with them you let your true spirit shine and can be as loud as you want. They accept you, and you love them for that.

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So the other day my sis and I headed off to Toronto for a highschool gals reunion, which we try to have atleast once a year. It's just our way of keeping in touch n catchin up on each others' lives. :) Anyways, we finally got to see our very much pregnant friend. She's only 21 and she's almost due! I just can't believe that one of my friends is almost a mommy!! Which sorta scares me. As we were all catching up, we started talking about how far we've all come. Most of the girls there I've known since grade 7..and now we r on our 3rd yr of uni. So we've come a long way. And now it seems that one by one, all of us girls r getting ready for marriage and one motherhood. All of us are friggin scared!!! seriously though, i still feel like such a child..i don't really  know if i'm ready for the next step in my life..even tho' i'm "supposed" to be..:p

It's amazing how time flies by,eh. One minute u r still in kindergarten with no thoughts or worries about the future, and the next minute ur in uni, wondering what ur future is going to be like. It's scary thinking about the future. I have so many visions of how I might end up or where I will end up. Yes, I worry about my future WAY too much..(possibly the only reason besides genes for my gray hair,eh?) I dunno. There's so many things I want to do and accomplish before I get married, have children or even die! But for some reason, i feel like i don't hv enuf time! and i'm not even 21 yet!! maybe i'm just a tad bit koo-koo..lol. yes that's it..i'm crazy. lol. ah..

i'm gonna stop here coz i don't know why i even started this blog. EGAD!(haha muffin!)

In your eyes, people see shards of ice everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing away people that love you and truely care for you! You want to be able to reach out and love them but... You can't for some reason... You're just too.... You :P Underneath that cold exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would probably be anywhere up high where you can look down on life below you, like the roof of an apartment building... Your eyes resemble a saddened, crestfallen person seeking out attention, but doesn't know how to handle it. However, you do find comfort from your friends, they're always there for you, and they know the REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather cold, you can be very protective over something you truely believe in or love. Let go of that "tough" rep and just be you! It's impossible to live life without some fun and love

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some parts of this r actually true..heck maybe the whole thing! lol. :D

:p so i'm just waiting to go to my st.kitts(St.Catharines) house to get my mail. so while i wait, i'll let everyone catch up on what's goin on w/ me..

so i just finished my 2nd yr at Brock U (Go Badgers!!). My major is tourism studies-administration w/ a minor in International studies. mouthful ain't it? Anyways, now that i got a 4 month vacation, I've decided i'm goin to take spring courses to get ahead(can't get enuf of school!). Meanwhile, I'll also b workin at MarineLand,which is an amusement park. I'll be startin work frm the 17th of May till October. fun fun fun. So for once, i'll b quite the bz bee. :p

I've decided for my thesis year, that I will do my research paper on Sri Lanka tourism. :) It'll give me a chance to get to 'know' sri lanka alot better i suppose, seeing i hv very limited background info on LK! Shame on me. :( I'm lookin forward to it, even tho' i know there's a lot of work n crap that i'll hv to get thru to do all my research. Anyways, it should b good. or i'm dead! :(

got 2 of my final marks for my 2nd yr..n good ones at that! got 82% for International studies and tourism research stats. sadly, that'll b the only good marks for this yr i think..

k..i'm off!

Do u believe that some dreams tell u the future?

well i sure think so. I don't necessarily think all my dreams tell my future, but i think the ones that u remember clearly, even after days, months, years..are in fact true.

lol. some of u maybe laughin at this..but i honestly believe some of my dreams. I think so far there hv been numerous dreams that hv eventually become true. unfortunately, they weren't happy ones. not a single one.

I know, maybe i'm reading too much into all of this, but somehow i feel like it's the way God's communicating with us. you know, trying to give us a caution as to the trouble that will be coming our way or even trying to make us see alot clearer about the problems that we r tryin to hide from.

unfortunately for me, i never took heed of these dreams. Only recently did i pay attention. I think it was when the recent event happened that i started believing in my dreams(nightmares, more like it). However, it's not to say i believe in ALL my dreams..only a few. the ones that are embedded in my mind for good.

ne hoo, that's my nonesense for the day. :) i'll b sure to keep updating my blog often..latez

In my International studies seminar, I had to do a reflective post n I decided on writing about living in 2 different worlds. Marginal man is someone who is stuck inbetween two different cultures; not really belonging to either one. That's exactly what i am. As everyone close to me knows, I've been pretty much travelling ever since i was a kid. I'm from Sri lanka, but I can't say i grew up there, coz i didn't. I left SL when i was 6 and lived in Riyadh till i was 12. Now, i'm almost 21, and hv spent the last 9 yrs in Canada. Ppl always ask me where I'm from or where I was brought up..I always tell them, I don't know! i'd like to know myself! :p why? coz i don't think i've really belong to one particular place, since i've been moving alot. It's funny coz when I'm in Canada, i call sri lanka my "home", but when I'm there i call Canada my "home". However, it's not just the fact that i've been travelling that's made me confused as to where i belong. It's also the ppl i've encountered everywhere. When i go back to SL, ppl think i'm too darn 'white' and treat me like a stranger. Here, in Canada, i'm 'brown' so naturally i don't belong, to some extent.

I honestly don't think I'll ever "fit" into a certain culture. I'll always be at a distance. I think it's also the same way i treat ppl. I don't really stick to just 'one' group of ppl, I mingle alot..as in w/ different types of ppl, from different cultures. most ppl, would just stick to their own ingroup(whether it be their race,religion,etc), but for me, i don't hv a specific ingroup..i just get along w/ everybody..however that doesn't mean i'm awfully close to them either. somehow, i always seem to keep a distance of some sort between ppl. or do i? :p

i guess u could say i'm a 'nomad' of sorts. not sticking to one place, always on the go! :D I wonder, do ppl who travel out of their countries feel the same way? i'd like to know! :D

So, after a yr's hiatus, I'm finally bloggin again! I wasn't goin to start again till my last yr in uni, but thnx to CHRIS, i've reopened it once again. :p

Anyways, some of my 'regular' visitors mite hv noticed that i've deleted some of my previous posts. reason being that it was a previous chapter of my life that I never want to think about again, therefore I got rid of them. Although, i probably should hv just started a new site altogether, but o well. *shrugs*

so where hv i been? where else but stuck with my books. so much has happened over the year, it's just crazy. I'm not goin to write about it all, coz it'll only cause more confusion to me and everyone else! :D :p

well, this is just the beginning, so i'm not goin to write much. but for all who visit my blog, feel free to comment. :) ne ways, i'll continue this later on..so till then....